Hello, my name is Methylenedioxymethamphetamine, in short: MDMA. One of my many nicknames is Molly. Sometimes people combine me with other substances and call me Ecstasy. I was born in 1912 in Germany without anyone realizing my potential. I was completely underutilized until my godfather Russian scientist Alexander “Sasha” Shulgin revived me in 1976. He recognized me as a tool for psychotherapy. I delivered incredible results, saved many marriages from divorce, healed PTSD, anxiety disorders and depression. Later I was heavily used as a party drug by the mainstream which then led to my prohibition.
I AM THE SUN. I AM THE LOVE. I AM THE BLISS. I ALLOW YOU TO MEET AND FALL IN LOVE WITH ALL OF YOURSELF.
I open you up to love to such a degree that you will lose all of your judgment. Through my eyes, you see your ego defense mechanisms and understand why you created them in the first place. With my help you can choose if you are ready to let them go with softness and understanding. I promise I will not make you suffer.
You know that every single experience of your life is stored in your memory? I can make you access all of it… your birth, the time you spend in your mothers womb, your childhood, your teenage years and more. I can show you the reasons why you chose to forget painful or also joyful moments. Because I take away your fight and flight response towards past traumatic experiences, regressing into painful memories that usually seem too scary for you to approach becomes a whole lot easier, almost inviting at times. This gives you the opportunity to finish unfinished experiences and process unprocessed emotions with little to no fear. A sense of liberation comes as a result.
I hold you in my arms and nurture you like a loving mother. In fact, I flood your body with the exact hormones that are formed during a secure bond between mother and child. This feeling of love will give you the safety and trust you need to let yourself fall into all of your emotions, especially those that seem scary.
NOT ONLY WILL YOU REMEMBER YOUR INNER CHILD, YOU WILL HAVE THE CHANCE TO FULLY BECOME YOUR INNER CHILD ONCE AGAIN.
I allow you to relive beauty and your deepest pain but because you feel held by my soft hug it will not feel as hurtful this time. Reawakening your childhood dreams, I let your creativity, playfulness and joy surface. I open your eyes to the heavenliness that resides in every little thing – even in sorrow. If you are ready, I can show you empathy for others, especially for those who hurt you badly. But if you need to release anger first, I will hold you while you scream.
But to share a little secret with you… I am actually not doing any of that, YOU are doing it all. I simply activate your inner healer who lets the different aspects of the self communicate with each other. That is why I have been proven to be highly capable of assisting the treatment of PTSD, Depression, Anxiety Disorders and Neuroses, while I also help to restore love and understanding in relationships.
People take me to party because they want to benefit from the feeling of love and bliss I offer them access to. Using me to escape your life, to get away from problems and fears will give you a momentary relief, but this form of unaware consumption is highly addictive. If you use me too often I can mess with your neurotransmitters and lessen the production of serotonin in your brain. While I have wonderful effects when you dose me right, I can be seriously health deteriorating and even deadly if you overdose me.
People love to dance with me because I release their resistance to let loose. But that is by far not my greatest power.
If you take me for inner exploration in a safe environment, you will find a whole new world of self-love, empathy, feeling, allowing, acceptance and liberation. I take away your resistance to feel and you will be able to see the truth. This experience will bring you back into alignment with your purpose and true wishes. Please do not abuse me and get to know my strength by experiencing me in this much more profound way.
I unite your body, mind and soul, and unlock the key to your fundamental being. I bring you in touch with your inner power. You will see when and why you lost it to self-doubt.
BUT MY MOST BEAUTIFUL GIFT IS THAT OF ABSOLUTE CLARITY. UNDER MY INFLUENCE, ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS YOU’VE STRUGGLED TO FIND RESOLVE FOR, WILL FLOW.
You will rarely feel a loss of control if you take me with the intention of introspection, in the right quantity and in an environment that makes you feel safe. I highly advise you to work with an entheogenic guide to help guide you through past trauma when needed and to communicate with the different aspects of the self when they reveal themselves allowing you maximum exposure to my potential.
While I touch you within, you are able to release resistance to everything that is. Like the rays of the warm sun, I invite you to say “yes” to life. I help you to release the emotional burdens you carry on your shoulders, so not only can your life become lighter but you can move forward without the limiting self-restrictions that previously held you back. My offer is one of positive consciousness, vitality, enthusiasm and deep joy. Through my eyes you will see why you are absolutely lovable and perfect the way you are in every moment.
And whenever you are ready I can give you a taste of what true enlightenment feels like.
Thanks for getting to know me. Let’s Fly!
CHARACTERISITICS OF MDMA
How do you take me?
I am a white crystal, a brownish to dark color usually indicates bad quality or disintegration. You swallow me in a capsule. Please don’t snort me, because my acidic character can heavily irritate your nasal mucosa.
My optimal dosage is 1.5mg per kg body weight for men and about 1.3 per kg for women. Lower doses can show little or even an adverse effect, while higher doses usually only increase side effects and overdoses can be deadly.
My heart opening effects begin within 30-90 minutes after ingestion, often with short rushes of exhilaration, which can be frightening sometimes. The duration of my Divine High is 4-8 hours.
I do not recommend the use for escapism but if you do it anyway, you should know that I sometimes open your awareness to repressed feelings and bring up anxiety and panic on the middle of the dance floor. Know that I only ever open you up to what you were trying to hide from yourself, so in such a scenario I suggest you find a safe place and try to open up to the flow of your emotions.
For its stimulating effects, the substance is usually swallowed (onset 30-60 minutes) or kept under the tongue (onset 15-45 minutes). Its high usually lasts for 8-12 hours.
SAFETY & RESPECT FOR MDMA
What you need to know!
Use me in a safe environment with a knowledgable trip sitter or entheogenic guide who can help lead you through emotional processes. Attention to sufficient intake of water and electrolytes is vital. Medical complications usually arise from dehydration or, on the other side, water intoxication.
As judgement is impaired, driving or operating machinery should be avoided.
Make sure you drink the right amount of water (between 250 and 400ml every hour). I can dehydrate you because I raise your body temperatures. But if you drink too much you can get overhydrated, which is just as dangerous.
If you take me as an ecstasy tablet, I am usually mixed with MDA, Amphetamine, Caffeine, Ketamine, medicament or even toxins to increase volume and profit. This can be highly dangerous. Mixed with other substances you likely will experience a comedown effect of depressive symptoms. You may feel physically exhausted, depressed, anxious, paranoid, irritable, unable to sleep.
Do not mix me with alcohol!
The MDMA comedown
During recreational use, many users report a phase of depression or negative emotions when they feel the effects of my divine high lessening.
Interestingly, in a MAPS sponsored clinical research, depressed mood in days 1-7 following the use of my molecule was observed in 13% of patients in the placebo condition, and 13% of patients in the 100-125 mg condition!
Anecdotal reports indicate that my comedown is strongly related to impure MDMA, unsafe dosages, not waiting long enough between MDMA uses, lack of sleep, other unhealthy actions or other drug use.
And still, it’s important to replenish your body’s supply of neurotransmitters (the chemical messengers of brain cells). My Divine High affects the brain by increasing the activity of at least three neurotransmitters: serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine. The best thing to take to re-up your serotonin supply is 5-HTP, which is a chemical precursor to serotonin. To replenish your dopamine supply, I recommend you take Velvet Bean (mucuna pruriens), which contains the dopamine precursor levodopa. Take it for at least 3 days after your experience with me.
SIDE EFFECTS OF MDMA
Be prepared for possible side effects!
Disorientation, Anxiety, Compulsive Obsessive Behaviour
Reduced appetite, Tightening of muscles, Dilated pupils, Nausea or vomiting, Strong pulse, Increased temperature, Decreased urine output and increased thirst, Long term use can lead to damage to liver and kidney, depression.
They say, I make you clench your jaw when in fact I just show you that you are storing emotions in your jaw that want to be released. You will need the right space to understand and process those stuck emotions.
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