My Frist Ayahuasca Experience
We arrived at the Shaman’s home in the jungle in Costa Rica. Two friends of mine also decided to participate in the ceremony. The living room was a big open...
My Experience With Microdosing Mushrooms
A few months ago, I started the process of writing my first book. In the beginning, it was stimulating, inspiration was flowing to me effortlessly, but after a few weeks,...
My personal experience overcoming depression
10 years ago I felt deeply depressed. Not hearing my alarm in the morning, sleeping until midday, canceling meetings with my friends because I couldn’t stop crying, nor could I...
Treating my Depression with Psilocybin
I remember these days very clearly. Waking up in the morning very late even though my alarm had already gone off 10 times three hours earlier and I had ignored...
My First Kambo Experience
It is a January morning in Costa Rica. I am at my shamans house to take the shamanic medicine called Kambo – a frog poison from the Amazon that makes...
The Power of No – A Yopo Experience
I am sitting in a circle of strangers. In the center, a burning fire shines light on the faces of three shamans from the Kamayura tribe of Brazil. About 20...
Being Brave; It’s Not What You Think.
(Inspired by LSD) Others look at my life, see me traveling around the world alone and think I am fearless. So, they conclude that I must be very courageous as...
Dear Masculine, A Letter
(inspired by microdosing LSD) Dear Masculine, I am your often forgotten counterpart, the Feminine. Do you remember me? I am the nothingness, the black hole, the empty space between matter....
In Choosing Pain, She Found Freedom.
(inspired by Kambo) All of her life she had been trying to run away from pain. She went from place to place, traveled around the world to find her joy....
When Freedom Becomes Lonely and Love Becomes Imprisoning
(Inspired by MDMA) Look at me from the outside. I seem free like a bird—always looking for the next adventure, the next destination to travel to, the next unconventional thing...
Beautiful Breakthrough
I have been through many periods in my life in which I felt stuck and suffered from depression. On the outside I looked successful: an award winning photographer who works...
From Avoidance to Arrival – My Story with Psychedelics
Spirituality was something I came to out of necessity. My own ill-health, lack of authenticity, unfullillmet and the utter loneliness I was drowning in threw me into searching desperately for...