The Power of No – A Yopo Experience
I am sitting in a circle of strangers. In the center, a burning fire shines light on the faces of three shamans from the Kamayura tribe of Brazil. About 20...
The Sense in Sensitivity…
Have you ever been told that you’re too sensitive? Do you see this as a weakness? Is your sensitivity something you try to withhold for the sake of others? Because it...
The Gift of Unconditional Love
(inspired by microdosing LSD) You came into my world. You came into my soul. It seemed like forever that I had been waiting for unconditional love. And there you were...
Being Brave; It’s Not What You Think.
(Inspired by LSD) Others look at my life, see me traveling around the world alone and think I am fearless. So, they conclude that I must be very courageous as...
Nothing, The Bravest Thing I’ve Ever Done
No was a word my mouth uttered often while my heart, feeling wildly differently, remained silently crushed in the background. No, to invitations, no to weekends away, no to fun,...
Out of Control….Into Myself
I began to distance myself from her, this dark shadow who shrouded my light This enraged her, she defiantly held her ground After a lifetime of wholehearted and obedient service...
Dear Masculine, A Letter
(inspired by microdosing LSD) Dear Masculine, I am your often forgotten counterpart, the Feminine. Do you remember me? I am the nothingness, the black hole, the empty space between matter....
Creating Everything Out of Nothing
Could you imagine if the most important thing we did every single day was nothing? Try it! Start your day doing absolutely nothing, not breathing, not meditating, not even watching...
Another Way to Love (Polyamory)
(inspired from psilocybin mushrooms) It happened in Portugal in the summer of 2014. I had spent the whole night with Peter. We were cuddling in the morning hours when somebody...
Loneliness
Loneliness is not a lack of company, loneliness is a lack of connection. Loneliness is keeping yourself locked inside in the presence of others. Loneliness is suppressing yourself when you...
In Choosing Pain, She Found Freedom.
(inspired by Kambo) All of her life she had been trying to run away from pain. She went from place to place, traveled around the world to find her joy....
Thank You For The Pain
(inspired by MDMA) I am standing here with both feet in the ocean. The sun shines on me and lightens up my darkest shadow. I close my eyes. I feel...
I Raped Myself a Thousand Times.
(inspired by Rapé) I was my own abuser. With nearly every man I have ever had sex with, with each one of my former boyfriends, there were countless moments of...
Taking The Ego Out of Yoga
I sat in my living room, cross legged at the top of the mat. Breathing, connecting with my heart, connecting with my body, connecting with my mind. My heart decided...
Pain
Pain is the suppression of our emotions, it is the denial of our authenticity. It is our forbidden desires, denied, rejected, stepped upon and forced to the depths of our soul, anchored...
8 Steps to Stop Following Steps
(Inspired by MDMA) The internet is filled with step-by-step guides to help you reach any goal you want. They tell you how to make yourself rich in five steps or...
There Is Nothing Wrong With You
Listen to the audio file here What if I told you there is nothing wrong with you? Nothing…nothing at all. What if you took on that belief? What would your...
Dear Family, I Have Lost My Mind
(inspired by MDMA) Dear Family, Yes, I have lost my mind. At least those parts of my mind that kept me from being free. That’s how I now find the...
When Freedom Becomes Lonely and Love Becomes Imprisoning
(Inspired by MDMA) Look at me from the outside. I seem free like a bird—always looking for the next adventure, the next destination to travel to, the next unconventional thing...